[Mind's Eye] its almost 5 a.m,

As i was llying in my bed...and thinking.... and watching the light
from the window form a pattern on my sheets.... the temperature just
perfect.... no claims to be met tomorrow... i was thinking how perfect
right now is... its nothing... no special thing.. no ocassion... but i
was very happy... i was... you see.. im sure almost all of of you must
have felt this... the ever coming...of what.. i dont really know...but
the fact that it makes 'now'...so transitory..when you sometimes do
stumble upon now..so brief it is...a meeting one anticipates..so
brief...the wait and the aftermath they seem to have enough
space...but what of the Moment... almost non existent... when i have
had moments of joy... simple things like white clouds in the
sky...imediately follows the great sadness... the Ever coming looms...
or is it the ever passing... its not a question today... only a will
to set it down....i long to feel an eternal moment ..if there one to
be felt... except for when one is in physical pain perhaps...that
seems an eternity....But joy.... i wonder if i ever will reconcile
myself with this...it makes me immensely sed sometimes... makes you
want to be reckless to hold and mark the Moment... but it is slipping
yet... ....